Loving and Letting Go

The last time we saw each other

You ask me, “Do you still love me?”

I just shrugged my shoulder and smiled,

As if saying “Yah! Do You?”

We talk, but the distance between us seem to widen

We no longer have our usual laughs,

Nor have comfort with our usual talks

I guess our personality have deepened

But perhaps you also feel my unspoken feelings

You understand the meaning behind my controlled emotion

Good! We’re intelligent enough to know we’ll count years

Before we’ll see each other again

Counting for the days, weeks and months

Within I can no longer hear your jokes that once made me bliss

Where in the consequences of certain things

Make me blue through days

But knowing that you still love me in your simple ways

I can stand waiting

Till the day we’ll know what our fate is…

Last Love Letter

Last Love Letter to the person i considered my soulmate…

When you come into my life, I told myself I would love you and never gonna hurt you…

You were my bestfriend, my love, my everything

‘Till one day, you came and said, “I’m sick, I’m afraid, I can’t stay with you any longer”

I refuse to believe you at first, but when i saw those tears fell down your cheeks, it spell out the truth about how you really feel inside, you were deeply hurt, yeah, I know.. I was hurt too..

You can’t even look straight into my eyes when you said,

“It was too late!..”

My life has change at that very moment..

I just saw my self on bended knees yelling…why?

I was down completely, but I had to be strong for you… at your worst.. | was there…

Until the day has come for us to say goodbye… I knew it, but I just can’t accept it…

If only i knew that was the last time, I should have held you and never let go.

The kiss, whisper, and embrace… It was the last… I can feel your arms falling down slowly, I know your gone.

We always thought our love was enough for us to last, it was a sad ending, its Gods will..

I know your happy now, wherever you are… and me, here I am hurting, broken.

Those fifteen long months its all gone now…how can I forget? how can I start over once again?

I’m sorry if you see my life falling apart… I know I can get you back and i wont seeing you for the rest of my life.

It’s more than a month now, this has been the longest month of my life, the most painful time I ever had…

The sadness of the night brings back the days we had, the time you let go of me, and the moment I surrendered you…

Even the silence reminds me of all the sorrows, the pain, and my hopelessness.

Let me suffer in silence, ’till I get over you, slowly, I can let you go and I will be me once again…

I will keeping my promise, I will move on but you will always be a part of me…

Hear me say this, one last time… ” I have found the essence of my life, I have discovered a world that’s beautiful because of you.”

My love, my misery… I’m letting go of you now.. It’s time to set myself free…

This is the hardest thing I will do, ’cause I still love you.. and this love this is all I Have…